When I wake up in my makeup

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Sat, 23 Apr 2005 19:05:58 GMT

I have a job interview today. For blockbuster. I'm really nervous because this will be my first interview and I have no experience. I probably won't get hired, but what the hell, it probably won't kill me either.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Wed, 20 Apr 2005 23:27:36 GMT

4 months. That's how long it's been since I last updated. You'd think that after such a long period of time I'd have loads to talk about, but if you think that then you don't know me at all. I still suck and still have no life, though I'm trying to get a job. Becca and I have passed the one year mark of knowing each other and that makes me happy, but I hate the fact that I can't see or speak to her. We do talk online though and since that's all we have it's good enough for me.

College is in so-so mode. If I get a job I'm going to leave school for a while. For how long, I don't know. I just don't feel like I'm getting anywhere so it's time I try something else.

'Tis all for now.

I don't know how to live without your love. I was born to make you happy...

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Sat, 11 Dec 2004 06:51:11 GMT

I just found out that the girl I love is engaged to someone else. Somehow I knew something like this would happen because no matter how much Becca and I love each other, I can't be there for her(physically, that is), and I knew that someone would steal her away. I wish I could be selfish and say it isn't fair and that I had her first, but that just isn't the person that I am. Everything I say sounds silly anyway. Even if I was closer to her, how I could I compete?

It'll be a while before she's going to be married and I want her to be happy-that's what I've always wanted- but it feels like my heart's been ripped out. I started to cry right after she told me, and I'm still crying. I haven't felt this broken since Sunny and I broke up. I'm not mad or anything, but I guess confused would be a better word. She loves me and her fiancé said she could be with other girls, but I sort of feel like I'm in the middle. I told Becca that I would back down if I had to, and she told me that she wouldn't let me go so easily. I don't want things to change between us and I hope that they don't, but what would you do if you had the heart of the one you loved, but nothing else?

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Wed, 01 Dec 2004 01:34:48 GMT

I took my last psychology test before my final and guess what, bitches? I got a B! Yeah, a B. And I only studied for 10 minutes this morning. Luck was on my side today. I hope I can get half as lucky with my final.

I spoke to Rob yesterday. When I called, he was riding his bike, so we didn't talk long. End of conversation. Thank you and good night.

Vacation's over. Time to go back to school... Wait. This a good thing how?

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Sun, 28 Nov 2004 23:44:31 GMT

How was everyone's Thanksgiving? Mine was good. I went over to my grandfather's house and my whole family was there. My uncle cooked and the food was so good. I didn't eat very much because I was still sick. My aunt and uncle came by later in the evening and they brought homemade mini-cheesecakes and mini-Oreo cakes. I had the Oreo cake and that was beyond good. Also, my Aunt gave me a card and it's hilarious. It has all the Sesame Street characters gathered around a table with Big Bird in the middle, dead and cooked. And on the inside, it says "Here's wishing you a big bird this Thanksgiving." I have a sick sense of humor, so I loved it. ^_^

The day after, my mom had her biker friends come down from the Bay Area. I had already met a few of them, but the others I met for the first time. They were nice, but loud. One of the guys, Rob, has a crush on me. He's only a few years older then I am and he's a carpenter. He humored me, and played Monopoly- Lord of the Rings, with me. No one won cause we called it a draw at 2:30 in the morning. He put the one ring on my finger and said "With this ring, I do thee wed." I was like ok... My mom even said that out of all her friends, she would pick Rob as a son-in-law. Getting a little ahead of ourselves, don't you think, mom? I got his phone number and his email, so I think I'll keep in contact with him and see what happens.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Thu, 25 Nov 2004 08:43:39 GMT

Yesterday was chainedangel's birthday. Everyone needs to wish her a Happy Birthday cause she's hot shit. ^_^

I've spent most of the day sleeping cause I'm sick. Hoo-ray. -.- My mom said I had a slight fever, but I didn't feel hot. Mom knows best I suppose. I got to stay home today, which I don't know if that was a good thing because I missed out on my computer class, and I actually like that class. Whatever.

I ate a slice of pound cake and I drank some orange juice earlier. Those were the only things I had eaten all day and now I feel sick again. Such a vicious cycle.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Tue, 23 Nov 2004 19:17:32 GMT

This morning, my sleep was interrupted by my mom shouting from my bathroom. Apparently, there was an ant invasion. I share a bathroom with my brother and we each have our own cup, which we use when we brush our teeth, and the ants were after his cup. That's what he gets for not washing his hands after eating.

Fuck. I'm sick, and to add onto my crappy state, I wanted to go to see a movie today. But, I don't want to be sneezing all through out the film.

Being sick blows mushroom chunks.

I have to clean up the house today too. Because of the ant incident and cause this weekend, a few of my mom's biker buddies are stopping by. Oh, joy.

-.- <--- That about sums up how I feel right now.

I just want to sleep...

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Mon, 22 Nov 2004 09:27:51 GMT

I was watching Sealab 2021 earlier and I saw a poster in the background that said, "If you can't cry... cut yourself." I thought it would be funny, if it weren't so true for myself and so many other people.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Mon, 22 Nov 2004 07:36:39 GMT

I just had to break the bad news to Julie, and tell her I couldn't watch the girls. It's just too much responsibility and on such short notice. If I had more time to prepare and if had a way to pick up my brother from school and still take care of them at their house, then things might be different. My mom doesn't want Chey, who's two, running around our house. She collects really rare snowglobes and they are very fragile. Two year olds like to touch things... and well, you could imagine what might happen.

I feel really bad. She has no one else to watch them and if she changes her hours so soon after starting work, she might get fired. I really am stuck between a rock and a hard place.

WTF?

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Sat, 20 Nov 2004 23:46:55 GMT

I just got a call from my friend, Julie. She wants me to baby-sit her two girls. She wants me to watch them Tuesdays for like seven hours. I don't know how long this would last cause she just got a job at Sears and no one else is available to watch her kids. Not even her sister. Laurie is only willing to watch them for a few hours. Kind of sad I think, cause they are her nieces. I want to help her, but I get the feeling if I start to watch them one day a week, then it will start to turn into five days a week and I have finals coming up. I don't even know if she's going to pay me. Once, maybe twice I'd consider this a favor, but not all the time. At some point I'd have to start asking for compensation.

I know why she's asking me. It's cause I have no life, so to speak. I have no kids, no boyfriend and all my time is spent either at home or school. But, I'm not stupid either and I'm not a personal baby-sitting service.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Fri, 19 Nov 2004 06:23:02 GMT

Just a thought for the day. Why in the world does the Ice Cream truck come around at five o'clock in the evening, in November? Who in the hell needs ice cream at that time? Anything for money I suppose...

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Thu, 18 Nov 2004 06:38:22 GMT

I believe sometime in July was the last time I updated. Sad really. I just abandoned my journal. Tsk, tsk, on my behalf.

Well, I'll try to recap what's happened since my last update.

In August I had my 20Th birthday. Yay for me.

In September, I started driving lessons and my fall classes. I'm taking Biological Psychology and Photoshop. I got back in contact with two of my old friends from High School. Found out that one of them now has two girls. Both very cute.

In October, my driving lessons ended and I decided not to take my driver's test. I felt I wasn't ready. So, I'll just wait and apply for my permit again and see what happens the next time around. I went trick-or-treating for the first time in years and I actually had fun.

Now, I'm getting ready to take the finals for my classes next month. 15 chapters worth of information for my psych class, and I can guess what I'll have to do for my Photoshop class. There's a guy who works at the bookstore on the college campus that my mom thinks would be a good match for me. Hmm... we'll see how this one goes. I just got promoted to a moderator on a LotR site, that I'm a member of. I'm special.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Tue, 20 Jul 2004 09:01:43 GMT

Oh, for fuck's sake. I haven't really updated in a while. I've gotten quite boring, I know this... I made a new background to match my broken heart(I'm so dramatic), I like it though. A few brushes and random placement can create good things.

On a different note: Friday there is a comic convention coming to San Diego and I'm going to it! What's so special about this convention you may ask? Well, in particular, one name: Billy Boyd. If you don't know by now who he is, where have you been? Not only is he my new obsession(see below for icons), but he played my favorite character from The Lord of the Rings, Pippin Took. He along with David Wenham, who played Faramir, also one of my favorite characters, will be showing clips from the Return of the King extended edition coming out this fall. I don't know if they will be doing a meet and greet, but just to be in the same room with them is more then enough for me ^_^
Also, Dom, who played Merry Brandybuck, is going to be there the day after promoting his new show, Lost. He will be doing a meet and greet... fate hates me. I can only go to one day, but I have decided to go to on Friday. The Billyness calls to me...

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Thu, 15 Jul 2004 01:46:44 GMT

I now have a journal where I can post my icons. It's located here facingthetruth

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Tue, 13 Jul 2004 06:26:20 GMT

More Billy. He's magiclly delicious.

I told you he was delicious ^_~

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Tue, 13 Jul 2004 04:04:14 GMT

A new batch of icons.

<--- Yes, it is meant to say "Billy Boy"

And one base.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Sun, 11 Jul 2004 07:39:17 GMT

I cut my hand opening a wine bottle for my mom.
Stupid bottle.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Sat, 10 Jul 2004 07:00:31 GMT

I've made some new icons, hot off of the photoshop line.

That is all.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Fri, 25 Jun 2004 21:30:00 GMT

I finally have some pictures of my rat. So let me introduce

Isn't he cute ^_^

Freaking Hell

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Wed, 23 Jun 2004 07:29:36 GMT

I just got home from a baseball game. Some of my mom's friends are visiting from the bay and they took us to go see the Oakland Athletics play against the Angels. Oakland lost, but it was cool cause I've never been to a game before. After the game my brother got seperated from everyone and I think I shortened my life by 3 years looking for him.
John, one of my mom's friends is really nice and cute, but he's taken -_- darn it
I'll put some pictures up later, but I'm freaking tired as hell.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Tue, 22 Jun 2004 01:35:48 GMT

I got an early birthday present from my mom today: I got a digital camera! ^_^
It really was my b-day gift, but she was going to give it to me so I could take pictures when Danella came, but as you know that never happened. I bet she's glad too cause now I won't have to use hers anymore. Anywho, it's totally sweet that I now have my own camera and it takes really good pictures too.
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I told my mom that I wanted to paint my room in the colours or Rohan (green and brown), but she's all blah, blah, blah about it >.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Fri, 18 Jun 2004 03:23:35 GMT

Well update news:

1) I got my computer back, yay!
2) I painted my bathroom peach, it looks ok.
3) I had a friend coming to see me, but she had to go home early.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Sat, 12 Jun 2004 07:57:11 GMT

My mom bought me a bow Wednesday. It's a red and pretty fiberglass with a 20lb draw and it's 50" tall. I don't have a target yet. I'm thinking of getting some hay and stuff it into a cardboard box. It would be less expensive and just as effective as any target I'd spend $50 on.
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I finsihed reading The Silmarillion and The Hobbit this week. I'm reading The Lord of the Rings again. Actually, I realized that reading those before reading LotR again helps to better understand the book. Sure this maybe old news for some people, but hey, give me a break ok?

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Thu, 10 Jun 2004 04:35:03 GMT

Hello to all. I'm using my mom's laptop since mine crapped out(again).
I took mine to my grandpa's to have my uncle fix it Saturday, but he never showed up. So now it's at his house. That very same day I lost my LoTR brooch! I cried cause I let my mom down when I lost it, but she ordered me another one. I had to clean up the house and back track all my laziness for two days, but that's my fault.

I was mowing the lawn for the first time today, but low and behold I broke the lawnmower. The pull string came off the track. My mom's gonna look at it tomorrow... I have such bad luck.

wayofthewaves@yahoo.com — Wed, 02 Jun 2004 05:41:36 GMT

I took some pictures

It's too hot

...and yes, that is a care bear on my head...

I love my care bear

yes I know my pictures aren't creative, but though shit.